Jesus said, Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Maybe that is what you are looking for right now.
God has a plan and a story for you and for all of creation since time began, and The Story will help you to see it. God will change your life!